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Paranoia?

I'm turning into quite the Howard Hughes as of late.

Went to church Christmas Eve and realized just how many germs are around.

First you walk in and there is a big "vat" of Holy Water that everyone and their mother and their snot infested child has dipped their finger in and they expect me to do the same thing....umm nahh thanks I'll keep my germs.

You sit down, listening to the beautiful choir singing, and in the background, in the echo of the large church, you hear coughs and sniffles, people coughing into their hands, blowing noses, even though it's in a kleenex it still leaves germs on their hands. YUM!

Then at the beginning of mass they want you to "greet your neighbor" Say Hi to the people sitting around you, say Merry Christmas, shake hands, hug...whatever. Just meet your neighbor.....That's right...spread those germs! From him, to you, to her, to him, to them....and so on and so on!

Then about half way through the service, after more coughing and sneezing and blowing of noses and children wiping their snot and then grabbing mommy's hand, they want you to hold hands to say the Lord's prayer.....Yes...Let's....Let's lift up our savior, for he is the Kingdom, the power, and the glory....and while we are all doing that, let's spread more germs shall we? Because I don't think I shook your hand before the service, so I am depriving myself of your germs.

Not long after that let's share the Peace that our Lord gave to us, and once again we will all share the germs that our neighbor has given to us, so that we may all find comfort in our bed while we are sick, knowing that we did the right thing by going to Church while sick.

And at the end, well we've all share our germs for the last hour, we shook hands, we've hugged, we've even dunked our germ infested fingers into a bowl of holy water....I wonder if it's antibacterial? No matter because we are all now going to leave church and dunk our fingers back into that same Holy Water and we will proceed out the door to shake hands with the priest that everyone else has touched on the way out as well.

And now I'm sick....think it's just paranoia?

Don't get me wrong I'm not saying DON'T go to church....but realize, in the event of a sickness, God will forgive you if you don't make it to that one mass, that one service, keep your germs at home! This has been my public service request! =)

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The 6th Sense

I think my child has the 6th sense. And now I'm wondering how deep it goes, but it's making me nervous now...you will see why....read on....

So we bought our house last year in August, as Christopher was a new little premie baby sleeping all day long, which was fine for me, trying to move in to a new house and deal with a 15 month old, and a new baby...well let's just say I don't recommend it!

So while Thomas was out playing in the yard and I was inside the kitchen watching and listening for Christopher to stir from his nap, I see Thomas outside, talking to...someone. I walk outside to make sure there aren't any strange weird neighbors bothering my child. And no one is there, he is having a full blown conversation (well as much as you can have at 15 months) and so finally being a little weirded by it, I say "Thomas, come inside now" he looks at me, turns back to who ever it was he was talking to and says "Okay bye" and waves.

Hmmm, okay that's odd. But never another thought about it.

So then just recently, I walk by his room and he is having a full blown conversation with someone. Pauses and mmhmmm's and yeps and answers and everything. So I walk in, and he says "Morning Mommy" and I said "Morning Baby, who are you talking to?" and he says "Him" ....Ohh? Him? Who? Him? And he says "Him, right dere" Well I know from experience that some children have a 6th sense and us as parents put it off as being an imaginary friend or tell them to stop or whatever and so they lose their ability to maintain their 6th sense so to speak. So I said Ohhh okay, well tell Him that you have to go and get ready for School.

About a week goes by, and I hear him in his room. I walk in and he says "Mommy? Him hit me", and then he smacks his cheek every so lightly, so I said He hit you? Why? Did you tell him that hitting is not nice and that it hurts your feelings when Him hits you? And he proceeds to say that right to "Him" and then says "Okay bye"

errr...umm Okay.

So a few days goes by and I go into his room and he says "Him says that my baby is in that room right dere" And I said Ohhh Him said that huh? And he is pointing towards Christopher's room. And I said Thomas, does Him have a name? (A friend mentioned it could be my brother, who was killed in 1996) and he says Yeah mommy his name is Him. So I said Just Him? Yep, just Him. Okay well tell Him that Christopher is MY baby and that's his room. Okay mommy.

So I've had several people tell me that it's probably an imaginary friend and such. But the research I did while in college says that imaginary friends are constant, they are always there, they talk to them and about them every day. Thomas only talks about "Him" every now and again. So I don't discourage it, just tell him that's great and interesting and fun and all that good stuff.

So....this is where it gets strange....

So I go in to get Thomas this morning, and he says "The tree, it fall down, big tree Mommy, fell down" and he makes a noise. Well the wind has been howling today a little bit so I thought hmmm maybe he heard one fall? I don't know. And I check the Christmas tree to make sure it's still standing and he says several times today "Mommy, the tree, it fall, big tree, it fall Mommy". So on our way home from one of our errands today he is sitting in the house saying over and over and over again "Bye Bye House, Bye Bye House, Bye Bye house" And when I questioned him he said "I tole you mommy, big tree fell, bye bye house".

Ummm we have these like HUGE pine trees all around our house....ya think he could be seeing the future?? YIKES!!!! But it hasn't fallen yet...and the house...still standing, I'll keep you posted!

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Walking and talking.....

Is so over rated right?

So Thomas walked at 9 1/2 months....we were so proud, and he was running by 10 months. Sure he still fell every now and again, on his butt and he'd get right back up. No biggie! He talked by 9 months....well at least said his first word....KITTIE. But he was talking after he was a year old. Now he talks to anyone who will listen about anything and everything!

Now little Christopher....he was a premie, so the doc said he would be a little slower to do a few things....okay well he was 6 weeks premature...so he doesn't crawl at 6 months he crawls at 7 1/2 right? WRONG! He didn't even crawl until almost 10 months. So he won't walk at 10 months he will walk at 11 1/2 months right? WRONG! He is just shy of 16 months and he really has no intention of walking.

Instead he thinks it's really fun to walk along the couch and coffee table. Okay great, you have to start somewhere right? And apparently he thinks it's even more fun to fall at the corner...catch his chin right on the edge of the coffee table and put his two bottom teeth through his tongue! Now he looks like a Chow with a black spot on the top of his tongue....a bruise so to speak where it is healing and fusing. Good thing that tongue heals itself huh?

So walking is over rated right? I know....every child develops at different rates, I get it! I've heard it, I know it. I also know that boys tend to walk later than girls. I get that too....but why, oh why is it that I am the ONLY person concerned that he is not walking? We bought him a walker....he hates it. He walks on his knees....but will not, I mean refuses to walk. If you hold his hands and try to put him down in front of you....right down on the knees....Come on child....you need to either walk or lose weight cuz dang your 25 lbs is getting to be a lug on mommy's back!

And now onto talking....Thomas' 1st word...Kittie...awww how cute and adorable and so my son. And then it was Daddy and Ball and all that good stuff. Christopher's 1st word....UT OH, and Daddy. That is all the kid says....literally.....oh wait....he says "Nanny" for Banana that's it. But you tell him to go get his shoes so we can go, he crawls over to his shoes, gets his shoes and socks crawls back to you and puts his feet out in front of him and lifts his foot up so you can put his shoes on. If you ask him if he wants Milk, he responds....it's kind of cute....like when you ask a dog if they want to go for a walk or a ride in the car! He knows what everything means....you ask him where Daddy is, he immediately looks for him. You say "Kee Kee" which means Kittie, he knows exactly what you are saying.

The kid is smart....too smart if you ask me....so why, oh why won't my adorable little almost 16 month old baby say MAMA at least?

Once again I get it, every child is different, I've heard it, I get it....maybe a Christmas Miracle? He'll come running out of his room in the morning and say Hi Mommy Merry Christmas....a little much? Yeah well...one can dream right?

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O Christmas Tree

Love this picture of our tree. With our lights outside showing through the curtains, it just came out perfect! It's going to look even more amazing once all the presents are wrapped and put under the tree!

Head on over to Angies to see more Holiday pics for Wordful Wednesdays

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These are a few of my favorite things....

I just love the holidays, especially when it comes to decorations. My house would be overly decorated with the tons of stuff I have Christmas, but with little hands and breakable, irreplacable, sentimental things....well they don't mix. But here are just a few of my favorite things....

My sons stocking holders. For some reason trains just go with Christmas, so they each got one last Christmas!

The stockings hung by the Chimney with care. I think it's so much fun and Thomas has already claimed his stocking, making quite sure that I know it's his and not Brothers.

My snow train.....Santa is the engineer and it trails on with snowmen and gingerbread men hitching a ride. Like I said, Trains just go with Christmas, especially snow trains!

And he has a buddy....a snow cone truck, as well as an Igloo!
And of course my HK mitten!

If I posted all my favorite things it would be a LONG post....so just a few....

What are some of your favorite Holiday decorations?

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For the Love of all things HK

Anyone who knows me, knows I am a HUGE Hello Kitty fan. Have been since she came out when I was 4. I know, it ages me, that's okay! I have HK all over my house....and I have friends who sent me HK stuff all the time. Remember this post? I still heart Alicia for thinking of me and sending me some HK stuff!

I also share my love of all things HK with my Mini buddy, Nalani, she gives me a run for my money on HK things! I love that! And I always know the perfect thing to get her!

And of course since I not only have my very own Hello Kitty stocking....okay so it's not a stocking, it's a mitten....it's mine, and it lights up! I have several HK ornaments on my tree. I get a new one each year after Christmas!

But I also have my very own HK tree! I know huh? So while we have our big tree in the living room.....

We are graced by my HK Tree to keep us in the spirit in the family room while watching TV!

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The Blanket Brigade

I know I felt off the face of the Earth.....well not really but I did get a few emails worrying about where I was since I hadn't posted in a few days.

Well I got a mad rush for blankets..... so I've been busy doing that. This one had to be done right away for a girl at work retiring, so I was up doing that last night. The night before that, another girl at work, needed it ASAP because she was going on vacay. I still have 5 more to go...that will be between now and Wednesday.

I also made a blanket for Stellan, if you follow his progress at all you'll know that he has been SVT free and is no longer "under construction", and his mother has emailed me that he loves the blanket. It turned out great and I couldn't have been happier with it!

So it is that crazy time of year, and I have been busy, I'm still alive and well.

Coming soon to my blog near you, "A few of my favorite things", "For the love of all thing HK" and "O Christmas Tree"

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Another take on Strangers

Isn't it strange that we spend a lot of time as parents telling our Children how horrible strangers are. "Don't talk to Strangers, Don't go anywhere with a stranger, don't take things from strangers" How many times have you told your growing children something along those lines?

So when is it okay to talk to a stranger, to go with a stranger? To sit on a stranger's lap? When he looks like this?

Is it okay to go with him....maybe even sit in his sleigh, help him find his reindeer....

And we tell our children that this "stranger" comes into our homes....through the chimney no less, like he's breaking and entering....to eat our cookies, drink our milk and leave us presents in return.

And we take our children to the mall....or other local places....to see this "stranger", to sit them on his lap, to take their picture.....and we wait in line to do this!

No wonder a lot of children cry....I'd be scared too.

Now if all the Santa's looked like this

Maybe it wouldn't be so scary.
I know I'm guilty of it too....Christopher cried before I even let him go....Thomas was a little more at ease since he was with Emma. I wonder if Christopher cried because he saw Santa was wearing an earring.....hmmmm

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I had an Affair....

That's right, I did, I'm big enough to admit it.

It lasted almost a whole month. As soon as the boys would go to bed at night, he would creep in.....consume my thoughts....and even at lunch from work. I was obsessed.

I was just in a different world. My thoughts...I wondered....what now, what next.....I couldn't wait to see what happened. I fell in love....I cried....I hurt...and I celebrated.

And now....it's over. Flew out as fast as it flew in. And I, well I am left with nothing....

I know, I know, it's heartbreaking! But don't worry I'll be alright, the hubs will be happy to have his wife back, I will no longer have my nose in a book every chance I get! My love affair with Twilight is now over.

I have just finished reading the whole Twilight saga as well as Midnight sun. I have seen both movies and I am looking forward to Eclipse coming in the summer of 2010 and the two movies they have broken Breaking Dawn into that they have left to shoot! So until the movies come out, my affair is now officially over!

Now onto all of your suggestions for the next read....I can't wait to see what's out there!

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Happy Birthday Grandma!

Hard to believe just how fast this year has gone by....
And Christmas, is upon us again!

One thing that comes along with Christmas is grandma's birthday, she is a Christmas Carol, or so her father said, and hence, that is what she was named!

Thomas had a ton of fun "painting" cookies for Grandma's birthday party! Christopher was still napping and didn't partake in this particular activity....

We told him the frosting was "paint" so he wouldn't eat the frosting instead of painting the cookies, so it worked out great. Good thing....the kid doesn't eat Paint, the bad thing, he won't eat any cookies with paint on them! Ahh well....he doesn't need any cookies anyway!

And then we went to Grandma's birthday party. Both the boys had a ton of fun playing with anyone and everyone there!

Happy Birthday Mom! We love you and look forward to so many more birthdays to come!!

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Strangers.....

Have you ever stopped to notice just how much strangers do touch our lives?

The strangers that touch my life the most..... those that have something to share.

Simple pleasures from a smile to a couple of words.... "Thank you".

Despite the fact they are strangers, it makes you stop and think.

Everyone who has a blog, they are strangers, yet I read a ton of blogs and they teach me, or touch me or help me in some way. Those with stories to tell, happy, sad and indifferent.

Just a few that have helped me in some way.....a blog about shaken baby syndrome, helped me to learn patience with not only my children but others as well. A baby is a baby and we have to remember that children cry and need more than they are sometimes able to tell us. Thanks Noah!

How about my struggle through life wanting a baby so much, and couldn't get pregnant, was told I wouldn't ever get pregnant and if I did I wouldn't carry baby to full term, yet there are countless blogs that taught me to be grateful for what I have with both my boys, to know that they both are true miracles!

I read about couples or even single mothers that have lost their children, and it's a gentle reminder of the child I lost at 16 1/2 weeks pregnant, how I was not alone in feeling what I felt and feel now. It has helped me to remember that life in any form is precious.

The peaceful feeling that came over me after reading Kayleigh's story, and how perfectly at peace her parents were throughout her life, how they accepted God's will for their special miracle they named Kayleigh.

A special thanks to ALL the blogs that make motherhood seem easy. Those blogs that talk about some of the heaviest trials and tribulations in life and remind me that not only am I not alone, but that when it comes to being a parent....learn to LAUGH, it really doesn't have to be all that, and children really are comedy at it's best!

Sweet Maddie, who is a daily reminder, through her countless smiles that are posted on her parent's blogs, how happy life should be while you are here and just how many lives she has touched since she's become an angel.

To several of the blogs I follow that remind me of the cancer that posions this world and how lucky I have been to have mine removed and to live on to help others through Spirit Jump.

These people are all strangers in a sense to me, yet they allow me a look into their life, a chance to take what I want and learn and leave the rest. An opportunity to see that I am not the only one who has some of the same problems. Just a small glimpse into something else. A chance to remember to be grateful, to be hopeful, to have faith, to live life, to laugh and to just BE. And hopefully, someday, somewhere someone can take something from me, from what I share, as private as some may think it is, I might be someone's stranger to help them laugh, or cope or share!

Inspired by Mama Kat's assignment. Head on over to her place to read more.

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Tis the Season

Tis the season....For the polar express....
So we joined some close friends and traveled all the way to the North Pole to meet Santa!
Thomas being the class clown really cracked up Emma!

And then we couldn't get them to smile to save our lives

Even Christopher hangin with Mommy and Santa couldn't get a grin!

Thomas was looking for Santa as we neared the North Pole....

And Santa's Elf read us the Night Before Christmas, the kids listened so intently

And then it was cookie time......lookie, lookie, lookie it's a cookie, cookie!

And this was Thomas first time having Chocolate Milk, he had it once before and he hated it, but this time it's different.

Christopher finally having a good time and cheesin' it for the camera, must have been the cookie and chocolate milk!

Christopher's very first meeting with Santa, he was skeptical but took a candy cane, but when it came time to sit with Santa for a pic, he cried and cried! And Santa was so hip, slick, and cool he had an earring that complimented his hearing aid!

But he did love that candy cane, for all of about 2 minutes then he didn't seem to care for the taste anymore.

And we all got to tell Santa what it was that we wanted for Christmas before we had to return to reality!

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Sometimes I hate being the Mom part II

Okay so after a couple of days of torture it came to a head this afternoon.

My stomach was all tied in knots over this stupid H1N1 vaccine.

Took the boys in, hating every minute of it. Telling the Doc I wasn't all too happy about this, and he proceeded to tell him his grandson just turned 6 months and he had a shot all set up to take to him....

Ummm SO? This isn't about YOUR grandson, this is about MY boys! So although I think it's great that he is so confident in it that he will give it to his own grandson, that still didn't dissipate my fears.

He did say a couple of things that might have made me feel a little better but not much....that they make it the same as the flu vaccine which I gave my boys with no problem, that they make the flu vaccines fresh each year, it's a new strain of flu every time, just like the H1N1....so I shouldn't be worried.

Next year we'll call it the H2N2? So despite all the precautions, despite what all the research, despite what my gut told me.....they are now vaccinated against the swine flu and the flu.

God help me, I hope I made the right decision!

p.s. I did go to see NEW MOON tonight with my mom....more on that later! =)

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Sometimes I hate being the Mom

I have had a gut feeling since this whole Swine Flu thing started, a vaccine….sure, fine, but not for my children, and certainly not for me. I will take my chances.

My boys go to a small in home day care, they come in contact with the same children daily and those children do not have older siblings or anything and my day care professional is very strict about hand washing and keeping toys clean and such.

Flu season begins, my doc immediately starts pushing the flu virus. Okay that’s good, it’s been around FOREVER and has been tested and there are no problems with it. I got it for Thomas last year and all is well. Christopher was too little for it last year but he ended up in the hospital anyway. Okay fine, we dealt with it and we are careful with Christopher, he’s “fragile”.

Then the Doctor brings up the H1N1 vaccine, and I said NOPE, I have a gut feeling. He explained to me that it could be detrimental to Christopher if he gets it. Okay, Thank you, I understand, but I decline. Well all he had at first was the nasal vaccine anyway, which Christopher couldn’t get.

So then I get a call the other day,

Doctor: “Hey we got more of the H1N1 vaccine shots in and we’d like to schedule the boys”.

Me: Umm well, I am still not sure I want it for them, I mean it’s December, they are healthy as oxes, not so much as a sniffle. And don’t they need two shots?

Doc: Well yes they should have a booster in 30 days time

Me: And will those be available to them?

Doc: Well we are trying to get everyone to have at least one shot

Me: So then why Vaccinate them now if they aren’t getting what they need?

Doc: Well it’s a booster shot, and if they at least have the 1st shot they will be protected.

Me: Umm well….I just have a …

Doc: Let’s go ahead and get it scheduled for Friday at 4:30 and if you change your mind, just give us a call.

Me: Umm okay I will talk to my husband about it and

Doc: Okay see you on Friday!

Nice…..so now I’ve been agonizing over this for TWO DAYS! And now their appointment is in an hour and I still am not sure I want them to have them!

The hubs said he would support me in whatever I want to do, GREAT, sometimes I hate being the Mom.

What if I make the wrong decision?

To be continued…..

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I Feel Like a Teenager

Oh I am so excited about my current reads....I say reads because I literally just finished one and am already half way through my second.

Okay I know, everyone and their mother has already read the whole series and seens the movies and all that kind of stuff....so give me a break I'm a little slow! So I started the Twilight book 2 weekends ago, and I usually only read on the weekends when the boys are napping, and I get through about 10 pages and I want to nap too. Well not with this book....I read it in 2 weekends and absolutely LOVED IT!!! You know they talk in the book about the pull that Bella felt to Edward, and that is the exact pull I felt to the book, it was amazing.

So as soon as I finished it on Sunday I RAN, did not walk, but RAN to the video store, did not pass go, did not collect $200 and got the movie, brought it home and could hardly wait until the boys went to bed that night to watch it....and let me tell you, that. movie. was. HORRIBLE! The book, sooooooo much better. They lost so much of what makes the relationship, what gives them the passion, the development of the characters in the movie was horrible.

So I couldn't wait to start the new book, I started it last night and was up way to late reading New moon, and made it to page 84. Then this afternoon I had off work, instead of running all my errands, cleaning my house and doing such things I came home, laid on my couch and read and read and read. I am now 1/2 way through the book already, and as soon as I am done with this post I am going to read more!!

I just love this series, and I will be hesitant to see the New Moon movie, although everyone I know says it is a new director and a whole lot better! So we'll see. But my mind and imagination will always be so much better than anything they can produce on film. So I am anxious to finish the series of books! So don't anyone tell me what happens! =)

I swear I feel like a teenager again. This is the ultimate love story. My heart could literally feel the things she was feeling, and when I started the New Moon and they broke up, the tears just came! OMG how sad! I feel like I was right there with her. Which is why I probably can't put it down, I have to see what happens next!

Another brilliant episode of Mama Kats Assignments.

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